It SUCKS

...breaking up.

So I haven't written anything about it. His pictures just mysteriously disappeared from my blog. I've heard it takes half as long as you were together to get over it. I've also heard it takes 6 months. We were together for 2 years. I think I'll take the 6 months over 1 year. It's been 2 months. I'm not there yet, but I'm OK. Sometimes OK is good. Sometimes OK is lousy.

That's about as much as I'm going to write. But there are a couple of songs that speak to me at this particular time. So I'm going to put them here instead. Click on the title if you'd like to hear the songs.

BETTER IN TIME - Leona Lewis

It’s been the longest winter without you
I didn’t know where to turn to
See somehow I can’t forget you
After all that we’ve been through

Going coming, thought I heard a knock
Who’s there, no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn’t know
If you didn’t notice, you mean everything
Quickly I’m learning to love again
Im gon’ be OK

Chorus
Thought I couldn’t live without you
It’s gonna hurt when it heals too
It’ll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile 'cuz I deserve to
It’ll all get better in time

I couldn’t turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I’m dreaming don’t wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that’s the path
I believe in
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn’t notice, boy you meant everything
Quickly I’m learning to love again
Im gon’ be OK

Chorus

Since there’s no more you and me
It’s time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I’ll be fine without you
Yes I will

Chorus x 2

MANY SHADES OF BLACK - The Raconteurs

Go ahead, Go ahead
And smash it on the floor
Take whatever's left
And take it with you out the door

See if I cry
See if I shed a single sorry tear
I can’t say that it’s been that great
No, in fact it’s been a wasted worried year

Chorus
Everybody sees
And everyone agrees
That you and I are wrong
And it’s been that way too long

Take it as it comes
And be thankful when its done
Theres so many ways to act
And theres many shades of black
Theres so many shades of black
Theres so many shades of black

Let it out (let it all out) let it all out
Say whats on your mind
You can kick and scream
And shout and say things
That are so unkind.

Yeah, see if I care
And see if I stand firm or if I fall
Cause in the back of my mind
And on the tip of my tongue
Is the answer to it all

Chorus X 2

ANGELS - Robbie Williams

I sit and wait
does an angel contemplate my fate 
and do they know 
the places where we go 
when we´re gray and old 
´cos I´ve been told 
that salvation lets their wings unfold 
so when I’m lying in my bed 
thoughts running through my head 
and I feel that love is dead 
I’m loving angels instead 


Chorus
and through it all she offers me protection 
a lot of love and affection 
whether I’m right or wrong 
and down the waterfall 
wherever it may take me 
I know that life wont break me 
when I come to call she wont forsake me 
I’m loving angels instead 

when I’m feeling weak 
and my pain walks down a one way street 
I look above 
and I know ill always be blessed with love 
and as the feeling grows 
she breathes flesh to my bones 
and when love is dead 
I’m loving angels instead 

Chorus